Thoughts, albeit late

I think that the part where Father apologizes to Mother for being an insufferable bastard is going to be a very important moment for the play and the establishment of their relationship. The only time that they laugh together – I am hellbent in using this moment to show a glimmer of the people they used to be and lost along the way of life…why they were originally in love, how good it could have been. It also got me really interested in the possibility of flashbacks, not necessarily that will end up in the show, but maybe just in the rehearsal room. Flashbacks of the beginning of their relationship, how their love was built, had his sickness developed? …I’ve read that schizophrenia often surfaces around college-age in men. Was this something that hadn’t existed when their relationship began? And if we do act out these earlier moments between Mother and Father, should Marisa see them in the rehearsals, or should we leave her in the dark, as her character is? I think this is probably what draws me in the most to this piece, as Skye asked, the moments that came before the script even picks up, the love that propels Mother and Father to continue to co-habitate, the memory of things almost forgotten, and the pain that is left in its place. And what allows for the Child to persist in loving? I might be assuming to much, but I really think that through all this pain and fear and anger the Child still has the ultimate capacity to love. I think this is amazing. I see myself trying to find moments between the parents and the child that would allow this glimmer to continue – maybe the Mother scrounging money together to get the girl a really cool big-girl backpack, or maybe the Father playing her something on one of his guitars.

As far as more specific design stuff, I was drawn to Lizzy’s comments about how the house isn’t built of wood but of metal and plastic. I see cold surfaces, neglected cupboards, and the constant companion of a blue light gleaming off a television screen. I see the house in a similar way that I view the father – the deterioration of something once loved (self-loved) and well-kempt. Left to rot in an almost deliberate, obstinate manner. The color palette of de-saturated or drained really work with this idea, as well as that grainy, grating texture.

I want the audience to feel oppressed, but not to the point of exhaustion. I think it will be extremely important for the design AND the acting to allow for this, giving moments and details (maybe a picture in a frame that is perpetually clean and vibrant despite the surroundings) that reveal a family that is pushing itself through hard times, even with no end to hardship in sight.